4 Months Old

Elijah Riley,

Boy oh boy...it is hard to believe you are already 4 months old. Where has the time gone?!

You've had a couple of 'off' days - just not being yourself. I rocked you tonight and you fell asleep in my arms. I prayed over you - for your little mind to grow and develop; for your ears to hear the Good News; for your sweet little mouth to speak words of love; for your precious heart to know the love of Jesus; for your chubby hands to serve; and for your little feet to go.

Yes, go. That one brought tears to my eyes. As I hold you I know you will one day grow up and leave. You will become a man with a family of your own. That is the hardest part to fathom because I never want you to 'leave' me, but I know that is part of this process. Yes, that is many, many years away...but it is also a reminder of this whole gift of adoption. I have to be willing to love you enough to let you go. Wow. I simply cannot imagine how a birthmother does it but she must experience the most ultimate expression of love - letting go.

For now, I get to hold you and that is fine by me. I love you more than I can even express and as you continue to grow, I pray that your life will continue to bless others and bring God glory.

Love,
Mommy
























Thanks for the "E" onesie, Aunt Haley!