Status Quo

I don't like the status quo. I don't like static, or stagnation. I am self-diagnosed A.D.D. I can't sit still because I feel like I'm wasting time. If I'm not doing at least 3 things at once, I don't feel productive. Every position I've been in, every project given, every task assigned - it is my goal to produce growth. I have a masters in counseling but I didn't pursue licensure because I couldn't help people who wouldn't help themselves. I felt like I had failed if I didn't see growth. It's been my job - in every job - to make things happen. I like vision. But I also like a plan. I need action items. There's no point in having a meeting full of great ideas if we don't leave with a plan in place and action to follow up with - otherwise they're just ideas.

I suppose someone could look at my life circumstances over the past few weeks and months and wonder. There's a lot of things to wonder: is this punishment? Is it a testing of faith? Is it failure?Is it for growth?

There are no accidents in the life of a child of God. I firmly believe that. So here I am. Knowing that my life circumstances aren't accidents. Knowing that Sovereign God knows what I'm facing - before it comes my way - and He knows what I need to get through.

I can tell you in all things I feel blessed. Most of my life has been fairly uncomplicated. So going through trial after trial after trial has certainly taken its toll.

I don't know what the reasons are for the trials. I don't know what I'm supposed to learn from the pain. I don't know what I must do other than fall on my face and seek the Lord. So no, I don't like the status quo. I don't want to remain stagnant. I pray for growth. I pray for grace. I pray for strength. I pray the journey is a blessing - no matter what it brings. Because living as the status quo just doesn't suit me. That's not who God created me to be and that's why I trust He's not finished with me yet!