Elijah,

I have tried repeatedly to upload the latest and greatest photos of you - and I am disappointed to report to all of your fans, I keep getting an 'error' message. I know - it's been a few days, and I'll try again tomorrow - promise.

That error message has gotten me thinking. I've got so much responsibility at work, at church, as a wife and now a mom. I have to make sure I my priorities are in order. I don't want to mess up - even though I know I will. I know I'll make mistakes. Daddy and I still can't agree on how old you must be to go to the nursery at church (and everyone would be surprised to know that daddy is the one pushing for you NOT to go). Regardless, we get one life to live and there are no do-overs. Every experience, every opportunity and each mistake - they're all a part of the learning process, the perfecting of a life to make us each individual and unique.

Tonight as I rocked you to sleep, I prayed over your little body. Praying for your mind to grasp and understand the vastness of the God of the universe. Praying for your little eyes to see the glory of God everywhere you look. Praying for your little lips to share the Good News. Praying for your little heart to be tender to His love. Praying for your little hands to share and serve. Praying for your little feet to go - wherever He sends.

And then it hit me. You are going to grow up and become a man and one day those not-so-little feet will lead you away from me. There will come a time when another woman will capture your heart. It's hard to fathom, but your little life will be one that I pray touches other lives. You've already touched so many people by just being the blessing we've prayed for.

Yes, little love, I will make mistakes. There will be more 'error messages' along the way. There will be bumps and bruises, but I will always be here for you. I have committed to being on my knees to intercede for you so that whatever you grow up to be, you will always know you are loved, protected and prayed for.

Love,
Mommy