Mommy Dearest

Elijah,

I have come to learn so many new things in these past 4 and a half weeks as your mommy. I have learned that you prefer to be rocked to sleep - or at least cuddled close in someone's arms. I have learned that you have a 'fake' cry that is usually just for effect. Of course daddy and I run to check on you and then we laugh because your face is all squished up and you haven't even produced a tear.

There are times when I simply can't calm you. I have changed your diaper, fed you, burped you, and there is still nothing I can do to console you. I have to admit I have grown frustrated, not with you, but simply because I don't know what to do for you. And that is when I realize I still have so much to learn.

I look at you and see how my Heavenly Father must grow so weary of my incessant whining and crying. He must look upon me in frustration and wonder when I'll ever be satisfied. Oh how I must test His patience.

I can say that motherhood has taught me a lot about enduring patience, unconditional love and sacrifice. And still I look at you with overwhelming gratitude and thank a Sovereign God who chose to bless me with you. I love you baby boy.